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Analyzing my Attachment to ‘Wanting’

As I stand at the edge of an incredible phase of my human existence, I’m caught in a quagmire. All my life I’ve always wanted more. I’m a rebel at heart, stubbornly pursuing to express that which lies in the very depths of my being. In time, I’ve become aware of the limitations of my wanting. My Buddhist studies in India pushed me to see the idea of desire being the root of all suffering; I came to observe my attachments impeding my manifestations; but all of it at a very intellectual level. An entertaining thought of sort. As I rapidly learn to navigate the dualistic energies of this lifetime, what was once theoretical amusement has now sunk into emotional resonance. I know that for me to step forward into my true potential as a creator, I must learn to focus all my intention on the present. But what a challenge it is. All my life… our lives…...

Dancing Through the Darkness

Yesterday evening I broke. Feeling incredibly ‘weighted’ by the afternoon, I tried everything to shake it off. I meditated, went into my fears, contributed to others, but still to no avail. Finally, I pulled out my whiteboard and wrote in big letters – MY LIFE SUCKS.  I began to list down all the reasons that I was feeling like shit. I stared at it. Welled up with tears. And decided that I was going to spend the rest of the night with in this feeling of darkness. Actually, I even decided to watch the horror movie Jigsaw to really keep me there. Now if you’re into the whole positive psychology movement, there’s a good chance you might be panicking to find the ‘close window’ button on this browser tab. And even you’re not into that, you still might be thinking it’s a very counter-intuitive thing to do since it puts a lot of focus on...

Why You Keep Getting What You Don’t Want

As I pour myself into the creation and development of VO Meditation, my engineering mind constantly pushes me to look for gaps in my discovery in order to increase the effectiveness and efficiency of it. While challenging in all respects, the results tend to be magical. // Incredible insights flowing down to me a mile a minute. Recently, I received some guidance on understanding why we so often get what we don’t want. Let’s explore ^^ If you think of life as a giant, infinite, flip-book which contains every single possible reality you could possibly live in, then we can consider the very moment you are currently in as a part of a flip-book in which you’ve slowed down the speed of flipping through the pages. In other words, the reality you currently exist in is a part of the flip-book you’ve slowed down enough to experience in physical reality. Your belief system...

Am I Going Crazy?

Since last Saturday my mind has reached a whole new level awareness. Like I’m talking – Whole. Nutha. Level. Shi* is off the chain! I’m able to move my consciousness into any part of my body like butter sliding along a hot frying pan. I can process information in my imagination faster than ever before, almost making it feel like I’m able to control the speed of time. My body is releasing pain and tension like steam coming out of a boiling kettle, to the point that I actually feel like I’m expanding. As I listen to music, I literally feel myself melting into the music. It’s surreal… unreal… uplifting… soulful… magical. Here’s the struggle I face – it’s a journey all taking place in my head.  It’s like the polar opposite of the depression I faced last year. The only difference being that instead of a...

How to Learn at a Subatomic Level

Here we go. It’s time to go really deep into the power of the mind. A couple of things to note beforehand. First, we’re about to embark into some very ‘advanced’ personal development. I use the word ‘advanced’ in the sense that what we’re about to work on is quite complex. It’s going to challenge you to think in ways you’ve never thought before. It’s going to require an element of faith when exploring the concepts. You will likely not see/feel results right away; however, if you absorb the info to the best of your ability your subconscious will also work at bringing it to be. As a reminder, this won’t be for everyone – but if your gut tells you to keep going just remember your ‘job’ is literally to read these posts and really contemplate and meditate on the concepts provided. Ask questions too!...

Just One Breath

One Breath. Take one breath. Go for it… <pause> Welcome back. I’m going to invite you to take one more breath, but this time I want you to become aware of what you’re thinking when taking this breath. Ready? Go. <pause> Excellent. There’s a very good chance that the thought you had was “what am I thinking?” and depending on the length of time it took to take the breath, you may have been able to answer that question. Alright, you’re going to take another breath and this time I want you to lengthen the breath to answer the question “what am I thinking?” If you already answered it in the last breath, I want you to focus on expanding that answer. The key here is to avoid ‘trying’ to think of something and instead just allow whatever answer is meant to come to mind. Even if by the end nothing comes to mind, that...

2018 – The Time for New Time

2018. One year. A pattern in time. Defined by the idea of our planet circling the sun. An idea rooted in logic. Reaffirmed by observation. Repetitive. Familiar. Expected. If now is the first day of 2018. What will we call this same day, a year later? Will it be ‘now’ but then? or the first day of 2019? Which one is it? Both perhaps? What makes 365 days later any different then now? Time is funny. It tricks us into believing it’s real. And when faced with reality, we are addicted in identifying what’s true. What is the truth? Now? 2018? Both? Neither? The questions are endless. The ‘time‘ requirement to process all the answers, absurd – at least based on the definition of we’ve given to time. A linear process based within a preconceived notion rooted in language. But what happens when we take away our limited conception of time? What are...

The Only Resolution You Need to Make For The New Year

Year after year, it’s been the same shit, different goal. I promise myself to do all these things that will make me different… better. Better than what? Than who? What does that even mean? How could you even know if you’re ever there if every better reached is clouded by another better set? It’s a cycle of chasing… reaching… wanting… dying… Take a moment to really ponder this idea. This whole idea of setting resolutions. Ask yourself if it really ever works? I don’t mean by the short term dopamine hit you get in achieving it, but rather where it actually takes you? Where are you in this chase of a ‘better you’? If it’s always somewhere out there, then what’s the point of right here… now? Imagine you are in a giant cloud. As you sit in that cloud, you look around and see all these potential realities for...

Break Free From The Box You Keep Putting Yourself In

The past few days I’ve felt great. I’ve felt powerful. I’ve felt inspired. It’s like the sun has finally begun to rise on what was a very dark time. I’m excited for the future and grateful for the past. I’m more aware of who I am and where I’m going. Typically, from this state of being you would get a very ‘motivational’ post. I would project all this unbalance, positive energy as though everything is absolutely perfect. It would be one that aligns with my ‘anything is possible’ attitude. Today is going to be different. A few years ago, while working at an event, I decided to spend one of my breaks with a psychic who was doing free readings. I had already begun to believe more and more in this idea of a mysterious universe, so I sat in front of her being both intrigued and nervous. I knew she was going to give me...

The Limitations of Our Labels

Labels can be a good thing. Like when you put sugar in a container and add a big label on it saying “sugar”. They can be practical, useful, functional and a great way to save time and mental effort. The problem today is that we’ve become so accustomed to labelling, we’ve lost sight of what the label is doing to us. We aren’t just using labels anymore, we’re letting labels use us. We’ve become victim to their rigidity. Fallen prey to their constraints. And even been blind-sighted by their deception. We’ve become a society that creates labels without any consideration of the unconscious patterns that those very labels have on us. We stereotype, criticize, judge and jump to conclusions of who people are, what things can do, and the way things work. Let’s take a minute to explore this deeper… We’ve taken love and...

How Our Addiction To Coping Is Killing Us

As you can probably tell by now, it’s been a really intense season of reflection for me. That said, it’s been harder than usual. At this time last year there was a lot more fun going on in my life. I was zoned in on selling 30+ years of stuff, preparing for a new life in new countries, and was surrounded by some amazing people on a regular basis. From basketball, Netflix, movie-going and random Christmas parties, it was easy to postpone the reflection for when I was in the mountains of India (which btw I barely did in the end.. go figure). This year however, there is no getaway. The people I was closest to have either moved away or the relationships have shifted. Above all, I feel almost ‘forced’ to face the parts of me I’ve been putting off for so long. It’s safe to say over the years I became very good at coping. So good in fact, I was able to...

Analyzing My Pattern of Attachment

Last year around this time, I was obsessed with the idea of detaching myself from everything and everyone around me. To be clear, by ‘detaching’ I don’t mean in a physical sense, but rather in an emotional sense where I didn’t allow my feelings to be affected by things/people leaving my life. The process was helpful in many ways – I purged all my stuff (both through donation and Kijiji), all the way down to 5 boxes that held all my stuff just before I took off for my adventure in late February; my relationships were formed around the idea “if you decide to leave, it won’t bother me,” which was absolutely necessary seeing as I was holding a one-way ticket to India; it also allowed me to focus on the idea of being present in every moment, which opened my eyes to incredible synchronicity of the Universe. However, what I didn’t consider...

Using Meditation to Release Tension

As mentioned in previous posts, meditation is an incredible personal development tool. While getting ‘into the groove’ of doing it can take some time, patience and knowingly-futile efforts at first, it’s one of those things that aligns with the quote from the Alchemist – When you know what you want, the universe conspires to give it to you. Nowadays, the form of meditation most referred to is that of ‘no thought’ – in other words, learning to reduce the mental chatter by going beyond the thoughts. While this is a great skill to develop, it can also be limiting to view as the the ‘only’ form of meditation. I for one sometimes get into moods where have no desire to try to stop my thinking; however, still feel compelled to sit in silence. During these times I’ve explored other useful exercises I can do, and one of my typical go...

The Unsung Hero of Christmas

According to Google’s Santa Tracker, Santa Claus delivered billions of gifts to children overnight. The 3 wise men came to a manger bearing gifts of gold, frankincense, and myrrh. Christmas is often known and hailed for a time of gifts. We put up with the craziness of malls and the bitterness of debt just to be able to give something to someone. We spend money in an effort to show we care. We intertwine materialism with love. I’m not naive enough to think this will ever go away. It’s won’t. Nor should it. I’d be a hypocrite to say I wasn’t excited to receive my Centrum multivitamins, reusable beeswax cling wrap and New Zealand sheep fluff dryer balls! However, today I’d like to celebrate the unsung hero of Christmas. The symbol of the season of what it means to give and gift. The reminder of what each of us brings that goes beyond stuff, money...

Unwrapping the Gift of Presence

I promised myself to never use a cheesy headline… clearly I have my weaknesses. Corny sayings like this remind me of my nephew Kyle. At 3 years-old, he’s my perfect testing ground for all the cheese-tastic jokes that are brewing inside me. Over time though, I’ve noticed something quite peculiar – sometimes the joke passes the test, and other times the same one crashes and burns. The more I thought about Kyle’s ‘ability’ to treat the same joke as a new joke every time he hears it, the more I’ve learned about the concept of presence. Kyle, like many kids, always seems to operate in the present moment. That’s not to say he doesn’t comprehend the idea of a past and future, but rather his expression of both is always here and now. Instead of boring you (and confusing myself) with a ramble of words trying to describe what he’s...

The Physics of Self-Awareness

Alright, I’ll admit the title of this article is a bit bold. I promise it wasn’t to click-bait you. I truly think I’m onto something interesting that I’d like to share with you. For those of you who kept up with my previous blogs, you’ll know that I often liked to take my engineering background and create systems of thinking around the concepts/ideas/experiences/insights in the personal development space. My struggle in the past is that I was dominated by the right/wrong mentality and so when I created and shared these systems, it often came from a place of “this is right! It has to be this way.” As you can imagine, as the natural course of evolution took place, systems became broken/irrelevant and I became embarrassed of potentially being ‘wrong’. For that reason, many of my past posts have regretfully been deleted in an effort to...

Going Beyond Your Thoughts

Who are you? No seriously… who are you? Are you a soul within a bag of skin; or the skin itself? Did you come into this world; or out of it? Is your mission to become capable; or to experience the capability to be? Meditation can often be perceived as this complex journey into the silence; and while at first it can be, it’s far more simpler than most people imagine. Of course, as I mentioned in my previous post, the ability to meditate eventually happens after many encounters of ‘trying’ and ‘doing’ it. So the point of this post is not to direct, instruct or guide you – but rather to give you perspective that will add to the series of ‘doings’ that will eventually lead to the ‘happening’. Take 10 minutes, and find a quiet place to just be with yourself. It doesn’t matter where you are, the only commitment you have...

Preventing Spiritualism From Getting To Your Head

Close to 10 months ago, after selling almost all my stuff, I boarded a one-way flight to the mountains of India. The intention was simple – with very little planning, just a carry-on and my developing trust in the Universe, I would head off into a new life/chapter of epic spiritualism by living amongst the greatest monks and yogis. I would then return home, with a flocking crowd of admirers, armed with knowledge that I would then share with ‘the people’ and save the world from obliteration. *If you are holding yourself back from dying of laughter, there are no feelings to spare… you have full permission to let it out!  As embarrassing as it is to share with you that was the mindset I had, I can confirm that at the time it was very, very real for me. I remember walking beside someone I really cared about (Obviously I say that in retrospect) before departing and...

The Biggest Battle You Will Face In This Life

At one time I didn’t care if she was in the same country as me. Another, I couldn’t bear to be without her company. In one moment I was ready to fight for a future together. The next, I wasn’t sure if we should even be together. Like a flick of a switch I could go from ‘put together’ and pounding my chest to ‘falling apart’ and broken down in tears. She called me a ‘flip-flopper’, and rightfully so. I worried it was something more serious… I would look in the mirror and hated the person I saw. How could I do this to someone… anyone? This is not the man/person I imagined I would become. Not only was I inconsiderate of her feelings, at times I actually got a kick out of it. Had I officially gone crazy? Was I becoming a danger to people I love the most? To experience these thoughts and questions after 30+ years of a...

Finding Your Way Into Meditation

It was Tuesday afternoon. The ‘Final Death‘ stage heavily loomed over one of the most important relationships in my life. The conversation, which I messily started via text, was officially sent and I stood there in my condo feeling completely empty. As I thought about how to fill this inner void, my mind explored the various ‘resources’ I would typically use to distract myself from the discomfort. As I wandered my eyes towards my TV, laptop, kindle and bed, not one of them gave me the feeling that they would be able to fulfill me this time. For once, I had nowhere to turn… nowhere to run. I dropped to my knees, bowed my head, closed my eyes, and it began… To add some context, rewind 7 years ago to when I thought meditation was an absolute joke. Nothing but fluffy BS. I took great pride in my youthful, buzzing, untamed mind and couldn’t imagine...

When You Feel Like You’re Drowning in a Sea of Thoughts

Near the beginning of my journey into personal development (PD), I randomly crossed paths with a fellow ‘Coelho’ who happened to also be heavily invested in the space. My friendship with Bruno formed in no time, and over the years, while not always in touch, we’ve continued to journey down the long, difficult, confusing and scary path of discovering who we are at our very core. What I enjoy most about Bruno’s approach to PD is not only that he so aptly calls it The Rabbit Way (which btw I JUST realized is probably because ‘Coelho’ means rabbit in Portugese #Mindblown) but that he always lets his passion, self-awareness and desire to help others, lead him. There have been many times I have felt jealous of how much drive he has to create and contribute, a fact in which he will only find out once reading this post.. Surprise bro! lol What’s most...

The Changing Seasons of a Relationship

Relationships are a funny thing, aren’t they? At one moment you could be binging Netflix together for days on end, and the next you can’t stand sitting on the same couch. I’ve always been fascinated by relationships (in all forms), and understanding what it takes for a human connection to form, develop and sustain the roller coaster of life. It’s one thing to learn about it from the outside looking in, but quite another to be the guinea pig of your own experiment. Thankfully, I’ve been blessed with numerous experiences over the years; however, becoming more self-aware has made me more cognisant of what seems to be going on. In this article I’d like to share a framework I’ve begun to notice that I believe takes place in all of our relationships. By no means do I want to advertise this perspective as throughly researched or ‘proven’,...

The Power of Working Through Your Emotions

Have you ever wondered why when we feel (or may feel) good emotions like happiness, fun and joy, we have no problem jumping into the experience and going for the ride. However, when we feel (or may feel) bad emotions, we stop, retreat, hide, or distract ourselves do avoid every possibility of being taken for the ride? I’ve been really thinking about this recently, but not in the way I typically have in the past. You see, a few years ago I wrote a book on how we can use perceived pleasure and pain to motivate us to move in a certain direction. This was an excellent tool, especially for myself at the time as I was focused on achievement. But nowadays, as I become aware of the fleeting excitement of chasing after ‘the next best thing’ I’ve become more interested in the idea of human connection, both with one’s self and others. In this regards, the idea of...

Let’s Be Honest

If you’ve followed my blog and Facebook, you know I enjoy to post things as I’m inspired. I’m sure this may have been motivating at times, overwhelming at others, or sometimes even non-existent. What you don’t know, is the conscious calculations that I put in place to protect myself before every share… “Does this article expose just enough, but not too much so that I can be judged?” “Does this post show I’m vulnerable, just not currently a victim to that vulnerability?” “Am I authentic enough I can relate to people but they still feel I am certain in where I’m going in life?” It’s easy to post when the good stuff is coming to me; but it seemingly impossible to do when the day is shit. You see, I actually wanted to share what I’m sharing with you here in a YouTube video. I know that I have a lot to...

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